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Don't you hate it when you thought you knew someone, only to find out that you were so wrong?
Yeah, me too.
Overview of the week, anyone?
The breathtaking:
Tuesday night, I convinced my mom and brothers to lay out on the back porch with me and look at the stars. They were beautiful. We saw so many meteors that night.. amazing. It was so amazing, we did it again Wednesday night. I think that moments like those are some of the moments I will miss the most.
The irritating:
The drama. It's so far away, yet so close. I feel terrible. Sorry, boy. Really.
The only secrets I can't keep seem to be my own.
The amusing:
My friends. Enough said. haha
(On the phone)
Steve: Joe got hurt. Ask him how. I laughed my head off.. so will you.
Me: Oh, he's on the other line right now!
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Joe: I got hurt.
Me: I know, Steve told me.
Joe: Aw mannn.. did he tell you how?
Me: No, but he said it was funny. Spill.
Joe: "I got hit by a backhoe."
I was in the ER all day. My arm is in a sling. (hahahahahahhahhahaha)
Wowww. Love itttt! No one else..
The unfortunate:
I was on the way to a doctor's appointment and decided to stop at the library beforehand. I come back outside after 15 minutes with a great book. Turn the key in the ignition and no sound whatsoever. Daddy had to leave work to give me a jump. I was late to the appointment.
I got my hair cut. That part was great. Then she asks me if I want to finish using the tanning package-- the one I got before prom because my dress was so dark and I was so pale. Apparently, they only last 6 months. I had 4 of 10 sessions left. I agreed to use one that day since almost half of the package would be going to waste. Usually, I tan in bathing suit bottoms. There's just something about laying my bare butt where someone else's sweaty bare butt was minutes ago that gets to me. All I had on that day was a thong. My butt is the color of ripened cherries. Nice visual, huh? Ouchhhhhh. More aloe, please.
The anticipated:
In 5 days, I won't be here anymore. I love Pitt, don't get me wrong. But I love my family too. :(
Could it be that everything goes around by chance?
Or only one way that it was always meant to be?
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say.
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away..
xo.
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| Wasted on life. |
[13 Aug 2007|02:53am] |
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I stayed up to see the meteor shower because we have an amazing view of the night sky out here. I saw one flash of light. That's it. I'm so disappointed right now. Good news is, I visited a few sites on night sky activity and one of them said that this particular shower would be most active on Thursday. SO, I'll be going back out Thursday night. Wish me luck!
The other night was full of activity! We started off at Sheena's going away party. A whole bunch of us decided to go to Starbucks to see Ian play-- & we took an exciting detour to get $10 worth of gas-- Tommy met us there. After a little while, they couldn't miss anymore of the Steelers game, so I drove them back to Steve's house, made a pit stop 92873489327598 miles out of the way at my house, and then Tommy and I went back to see Ian sing!
While we were sitting there, Tony, Caleb, and (I can't remember the other kid's name) showed up and we talked to them for a while. Haven't seen them in forever! Steve and Joe called wondering where we were, so we said our farewells and I headed over to Steve's house. Tommy needed to go home, so I beat him up, and he left. haha ;)
When I got Steve's house, Sheena and Andy were MIA but Steve's girlfriend was there. I don't even know her name.. heh. Joe, Steve, and I went swimming. The girlfriend left. As soon as we got out of the pool, Andy, Sheena, and Sheena's brand spanking new boyfriend showed up. We hung around there a little while, and Josh appeared out of nowhere.. I swear. The night still wasn't over yet.
Everyone decided to go to Heather's house for a little party time. I got to be the DD.. woot! We hung around there in a tent for a good while before I dropped Joe and Steve off and went home. Everyone else may have slept, but I stayed up and watched both a movie, and my ceiling.
Well, that was a long, rambling account of last night's events.
I think I should probably get ready for bed.
Only 10 days left..
I miss this already.
In a house without a back door
I was looking for a fire escape
And I'll be ripping up the floorboards
Just trying to get away
From this sleeplessness
xo.
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| The perks of living in cow town. |
[11 Aug 2007|04:42pm] |
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Phone lines are back up. Mom's not coming home today. I'm lonely.
So, I'm gonna head off to a going away party now and then go watch my friend Ian play at the local (and only) Starbucks. Tommy will be accompanying me! :)
12 days.
Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything,
We're glad for what we've got,
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out right in front of us..
xo.
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| Come to Freddie.. |
[11 Aug 2007|01:38pm] |
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Mmkay, so Im home alone. The downstairs door to my Daddy's workshop has been open all night for the cats. (Please take a kitten. Thanks.) The electricity is on and all the phones are on the hook. Somehow I have no dial tone. And we all know I have no cell service out here! Right now, I have no outside communication.
This reminds me of when we first moved in here. Someone slashed one of the phone wires in my bedroom so we couldn't use our phone line for a week.. until we found it. Creepy.
I'm too afraid to look.
And if it's not bad enough already, my house has this terrible habit of making lots of scary creaks. Things that go bump in the night hang around here in the daytime too. I really need to get that taser gun..
Does this not sound like a horror film to you? Cause I'm seriously waiting for someone to jump out and hold a knife to my throat. Ahhhhh! In broad daylight. I bet the guy mowing his lawn would just happen to be looking the other way.. No one saw the killerman walk inside and make himself at home..
I'm taking my softball bat with me EVERYWHERE. End of discussion.
Man, you really freak me out..
I'm so afraid of you..
xo.
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| "The pros and cons to polygamy" haha |
[11 Aug 2007|01:15am] |
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Random Note: My titles usually have nothing to do with my entries.
You probably shouldn't ask. Haha.
Remember when livejournal was just a competiton to see who had the most angsty life and who got the most comments on it? I'm so glad that's over. Competing for drama. I like my life the way it is right now.. PRACTICALLY drama-free. Let's cross our fingers and hope it stays that way!
I would like to know something though. Why is it you can't escape creepy men no matter where you go? You could be in busy Oakland, familiar old Jackson, or even safe little Windber and there's always someone. Standing in line at Wendy's. Waiting outside of Hollywood Video. Walking down the street.
Tonight Shannon and I were meeting Andy and the guys at his house. We got to Andy's house and he wasn't home yet. So instead of sitting in his living room with his dad (awkward), we decided to take a quick stroll down the street (On the sidewalk, of course). By the way, everything's dead in Windber after 9. Normally, we would have been the only ones out there. But nooo. Not tonight.
We barely got down the street when a PoPo passes us. (Yes, I occasionally use Ghetto-slang)
Me: I bet he's gonna turn around cause we probably look like teenage prostitutes.
Shannon: Yeah, probably. That's just be our luck!
Me: Oh, look. He just did an illegal u-turn. Here he comes.. Grrrreatttt.
PoPo man: (Insert deep voice) Are you guys lost?
Me: Nooo.. See, we were waiting for our friends.. only his dad was home.. we just decided to walk down the street.. we're heading back up..
Shannon: Yeahhhh..
PoPo man: How old are you?
Me: 18!
Shannon: Yeah, just turned 18..
PoPo man: You don't look 18.
Me: Err.. sorry? Heh.
PoPo man: You girls be careful now..
Shannon & I: Oh, we will!!
[Exit PoPo.]
So Shannon and I turn around and we're walking up the street a little ways. Andy's house is uphill.. hah! And what a nice hill it is. It's the kind of hill that makes you wish you could walk down both ways. Everytime you get to the bottom of it, you regret your decision to walk. Anyway, we're just minding our own business, looking for Steve's car when suddenly..
A noisy car is coming off the exit we were walking past. You can hear boys shouting over the engine.
Shannon: I think that's them!
Me: Oh great!!! (Yelling at the car) OMG WE GOT PULLED OVER BY THE POPO..
Random perv in car: (Insert an "I want your body" tone) Hey, baby!
Me: Uhhhh, I don't think that was them.
Shannon: No. Definitely not.
Me: OMG the PoPo was right!!!! We're gonna get raped.
So here we are running up the hill in wet flipflops. Basically, between trying to keep our shoes on and trying to get to Andy's house ASAP, we almost didn't see them when they actually did pass us.
SCARY. SCARY. SCARY. I don't wanna get rapedddd. Ahhhhhh!
I'm thinking about cross-dressing before I leave the house. Hah.. put on a mustache and hide my hair under a baseball cap. I doubt I'll have to worry about any Michael Jackson drive-bys, but I might get pulled over by the Pope-Po. Yikes!
Maybe I'll just get pepper spray. A lot of pepper spray. And maybe a taser gun or two.
So, after being pulled over (on foot) by the PoPo and being hit on by nasty boys, we learned: Never go out after dark AND the PoPo knows all. Don't doubt the PoPo.
Aight, yo?
It was your hello that kept me hanging on every word.
And your goodbye that keeps me listening for your voice around each corner.
xo.
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| Home sweet home. |
[10 Aug 2007|04:12am] |
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So I've been home for a few days. There's a letter in the mail for AJ.
And I leave for college in exactly 2 weeks.
I think I'm a little stressed. Sleep hasn't really been coming easily.
But then again, it never really has.
I've really been getting into Something Corporate and Copeland lately.
The music's soothing. You can relate to it, ya know what I mean?
I think that was part of the problem with all my angry emo screamo music
back in 9th grade. The music did nothing for me. I didn't have the rage.
I miss everyone.
A few events keep running through my head.
I kinda want to keep them there. :)
Sometimes we just need to stop thinking so much.
If something feels right, then it probably is. So just go with it.
xo.
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| Catch a falling star |
[02 Aug 2007|01:20am] |
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I love walking on the beach at night. It's absolutely beautiful.
You don't need to say a word. Just take it all in.
I saw a shooting star. :)
I'm leaving Saturday now! I've been in Jackson so long this summer that I think I'll be having withdrawals when I go home for good. I have my heart set on living in Jersey after I'm done with school though. Let's see how that turns out! Hopefully, it'll all go as planned. See, I don't want to have kids for a longggg time and I don't plan on getting married until after I have a steady job somewhere. I figure, if I'm going to go through all those years of schooling, I might as well make sure I make something of myself. I refuse to be someone who drops out of college early and becomes a stay-at-home mom. I'd go crazy! But we all know that nothing ever really goes as planned.
To be here like this
And just to lay you down
And just to taste your lips
And just to keep me up
God I'm tired of sleeping
And just to lay inside you
And just to know this feeling
I wanna feel through you tonight
But I won't make you
I won't make you
Scream my name just one more time
xo.
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SURPRISE!!
We love you. Stay safe. Stay happy. Stay you. <33
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Ps- Mr Mock, Windber's tech teacher, passed away.
I never had him, but.. I feel so badddd. :(
RIP
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| Buddy Holly= hotttttt |
[25 Jul 2007|12:40am] |
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My printer came in the mail today!!! Yayy!
I'm really hoping the iPod will follow tomorrow.. Cross your fingers!
I'm trying to load my cds into the computer.. I have hundreds. I'm gonna be here for days!
I'm so glad I'm not doing band at Pitt..
I can't wait to go to a football game and be able to paint my face and scream my lungs out!!!!!
They wouldn't let us do that in band. Ew.
I kinda wonder if I'll miss it though. :/
Yeahhh I was supposed to be awake at 7am this morning, but that didn't happen!
That means I'm getting up early tomorrow.. allergy shots and such.
I should be filling out scholarship forms right now..
So I made the mistake of telling my mom I didn't mind if she went on vacation with my brothers and cousins without me.
Now I'll be spending a week at home alone.. Daddy's gonna be in Florida on business.
This really sucks.
xo.
Tell me there's a logic out there.
Leading me to better prepare
For the day that something really special might come.
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| Everything you want |
[14 Jul 2007|02:14am] |
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I can't really describe how I'm feeling right now. Maybe it was a long time coming? I just know that for once I have no regrets.
Went to the carnival today and then to Justin's for a bonfire/night swim. I'm so glad I met these people.All I can say about them is that when I'm around them, I can barely keep from falling over. haha =]
Today's my last full day here, so we're going to the beach for the last time this summer.
I don't want to leave this place.
I need to change my livejournal layout. Badly.
Alcohol is overrated.
I can't believe I'm not over-analyzing this.
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| Home sweet home<3 |
[11 Jul 2007|01:41am] |
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I’m feelin yummy head to toe
You see me
Ain’t got no patience so let’s go
You see me
Look, I’m diet drama
Wanna spend the night
Don’t bring pajamas
Man there’s so much heat beneath these clothes
You see me
I was looking back on all these old journal entries and I can't help but notice how much I've changed in respect to the way I now think and how I've matured over the past few years-- even though I feel as young and scared as I did at 15. Will we ever grow up? Do we ever reach a point where we feel like we know all there is to know about anything?
Here are some of ways I've changed since Freshman year:
1. I'm not at all tomboyish anymore. I love being a girl. I love skirts and dresses and feeling sexy. Take that from me and I promise you'll regret it. =]
2. I worry less. Yes, I still worry excessively-- and a lot of the time, it's stupid-- but now I know when to give it up.
3. I'm not the angry teen that my livejournal once made me out to be. Yes, we moved away and I'm still not completely happy where I now live, but I'm not mad at my dad anymore. I understand the reasons behind it.
4. I don't curse someone out on livejournal when they get the guy I wanted. I try not to broadcast all of my boy failures.
5. I hate drama. I try to stay away from it. I try not to start it.
I'm still in love with music, wawa, and the changing seasons. the shore. my family. my friends. my life.<3
Some things never change.
I love being able to see the ways we've all grown over the years. I believe that everything happens for a reason. And I love not knowing what will happen next-- who will end up together and who will end up alone. Life's little surprises.
I think that's part of the beauty in life.
& I love tootsie rolls.
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| tickle me rainbow |
[04 Aug 2004|10:19pm] |
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im soooo excited... jillian's mom can drive jill, of course, amanda s, amanda p, krista, and ashley a to mi casa!! YEAY!! soooooooo happy!! :D
yep..
that's it..
bye <3
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| brooke the cook read a book & made fried chicken |
[03 Aug 2004|12:23am] |
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Dude.. I finally kind of got my journal how i want it.. only a few more touch ups.. but yeay! Now I'm gonna start updating again.. So for all of you lazy p00ter taters..here's my life, right before your eyes.. Are you gonna read about it? hee hee.. why would you? maybe that's why you're reading it, because there's no reason to. yep. okay. i dont think im making any sense.
Anyway, screw my shindig.. im just gonna have dane, danie, and taggyp00 over..YEAY!! Not that i don't love the rest of you, but you don't have rides and i might come visit in a few days anyway cause i get around. Yea you know, I'm one of those whores who stands on the corner of mainstreet, basically the downtown area of windber, and gets paid aplenty from the guys who come out of one of the many bars here in the lovely state of PA. Well, I'm not really a whore/hooker. But I am a Brooke. I'm not quite sure what that's supposed to mean, but no matter what I'll still be your little Brookie. Wow, I'm really not making any sense tonight. I'm tired. Sleep time.
There's a quote I wanted to put in here from Kathie.. but earlier my pooter died on me. IT WONT WORK!!! mother effin pooter..$%$#%&*%#)(*&&^%%$$@!!!!
So now I'm on the downstairs pooter, away from the safety of my room. -sigh-.. ill have to get the quote tomorrow. Yep, I'll do that. Okay I'm gonna go to bed before it's totally impossible to understand what I'm talking about.
-brookiE <3
Did I tell you I got four tree frogs?
bye..
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| Hello again, my lovely |
[30 Jul 2004|09:50am] |
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Yeay! I just can't wait for my shindig.. if people can find rides, that is. I got the invitations out today; they're really late! But hey, for a while i didn't have a computer and my phone line went out monday and didn't come back until late night Wed, but by that time I was at my grandma June's house staying over night after the clarion county fair. You'd think they'd do something to clean it up when someone leaves a mess.. I mean, someone hurled right outside the entrance for the teacups ride.. EEEEEEWWWW.. and they didn't even put dirt or something on it.. People were actually almost standing in it while standing in line for the ride.. ARE YOU CRAZY? That's germy and disgusting and EEEWWW.. have I made myself clear? What's your problem person? Who the heck would stand with their foot in puke just to go on the teacups??? Certainly not me!
Anyway, let me tell you, PA is just a thrill.. WHAT A BORE.. hopefully things will start looking better soon. Right now though, it's just UGH.. I wanna go home, but wait. I am home. Gee..heh Last night I had a dream that we moved again, but this time from our big house, into a very small house. I didn't like it one bit. Can't I just go to college now? Oh poo.
Alrighty, well , the phone still isn't really cooperating and only one room in the house has a working phone..that would be mine. :) Daddy's trying to fix the phone and if anyone tries to call, they're not getting through. So basically I have to go. Adios, man.
<3 Brookie
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| tissues galore.. |
[23 Jun 2004|11:20pm] |
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i feel like puking..
after dana went home..dane came back and we watched secret window..well he did; i slept through an hour of it..im always so tired..
i hate the fact that everybody keeps telling me that i'll meet all these great friends because im such a kool person and it's just my nature. what they don't realize is they made me who i am. im not gonna be the same when i leave. my every impulse was derived from their actions. without them, im no one. i hate it.
ive just criticized myself for being the biggest hypocrite to walk this earth; good going brooke
now i cant stop crying and my head feels like it's gonna explode. i dont wanna go.
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| s0b s0bs and |
[23 Jun 2004|03:33pm] |
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:0D im mean.. i locked dane outside heehee
only seven days until i move away.. forever
im gonna cry
oh wait.. i already did
we're packin the pooter today..
:0( GoodbYe mr.Pooter.. see you in 28 days.. -sigh-
dane just took his pants off.. eww dane.. please put those lovely pants back on.. thankyou
i give good boners.. haha
that was fun..
yea..
i still haven't fixed this baby..
alright..
see you in 28 days..
2 8 d a y s
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| aMaZiNG* |
[11 Jun 2004|05:51pm] |
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Food Fight!! Yeay!! Foley got nailed in the ass with a cookie.. haha I think it's funny..
Dissections are fun.
Today was a gloomy day. I didn't feel like doing much of anything. So I didn't.
Now I'm working on a project for english; as if you could care anyway.
yea. well
i move soon
here i come Cow country PA
-br00kiE<3
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